have i really done wrong?

am i nothing but invisible?

 

you left me feeling alone and afraid

you left me in that silent world

you left me waiting and hoping

thinking it was you but ends up in disappointment

 

i stared, i wondered

thinking of everything i've said and done

wondering and waiting

thinking of what a fool i've been

yearning and missing

thinking of when you'll finally notice me

 

leaving me cold and scared

making me anguish and annoyed with myself

thinking everything i did was damage

everything that happened was what i brought upon myself

 

everything..

which in the end..

leads up to nothing.

It was a cold day in December
I remember it so well
You captured my whole being
And you left me in a spell

You warmed my heart with passion
desiring all of you
You left me cold in the summer
I wish that I had only knew but I

 

Chorus:
I never knew that you would be the one
to come along and snatch my heart and run
Away from me with no explanation why
I never knew what we had would die
All I wanna do is hide away
From all the hurt and pain of yesterday
Can't you see the tears, the hurt inside
I never knew, please tell me why

All the nights you left me crying
Keeping company with my fears
That some day you'd leave me lonely
And that's exactly what you did
I swore that I was your baby
the darkest night for you I'd bear
Now that I need you here with me
I call your name and your not there

 

You left me standing
so empty-handed
Out in the cold
How was I to know
That my love didn't matter
And my world was shattered
Cause you left me here
drowning in tears, oh why

 

Chorus:
I never knew that you would be the one
to come along and snatch my heart and run
Away from me with no explanation why
I never knew what we had would die
All I wanna do is hide away
From all the hurt and pain of yesterday
Can't you see the tears, the hurt inside
I never knew, please tell me why

Bridge:
After we made plans to spend our lives together
I thought what we had was meant to be forever
Oh why did our love have to go away
I don't know how, I don't know when
All I know is I'll never love this way again

 

Chorus:
I never knew that you would be the one
to come along and snatch my heart and run
Away from me with no explanation why
I never knew what we had would die
All I wanna do is hide away
From all the hurt and pain of yesterday
Can't you see the tears, the hurt inside
I never knew, please tell me why

 

I never knew, I never knew,
I never knew it could be like this (repeat)

as i close my eyes at night

all i see are images of him

the smell of his colone when he's near

the warmth flowing through his body

every minute of everyday

all i can think of

is nothing but memories with him

things we did together

places we visited

everything's been embeded into my brain

bringing smiles after smiles to my face

whenever thoughts of him enters my mind

 

every beep from my mobile

makes my heart skip a beat

sensing it's him

a smile starts creeping from behind

though simple and short

it just makes my heart fill with joy

 

as day by day passes by

parts of me start getting dependent on him

knowing i'll not being able to see him

brings disappointment and boredness

knowing the beep from my mobile isnt from him

brings disappointment and sadness

as i slowly fall into my own world of dreams

i realize how much disappointment i felt

not having him by my side

 

i can only wait for that day to arrive

silently praying and hoping

for i'll never know what's next in line

 

 

you're always on my mind
all day just all the time
you're everything to me
brightest star to let me see
you touch me in my dreams
we kiss in every scene
i pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
i'll love you till i die
deep as sea wide as sky
the beauty of our love paints rainbows everywhere we go
need you all my life
you're my hope you're my pride
in your arms i find my heaven
in your eyes my sea and sky
may life be our love paradise

living in my own world

cast away from reality

my life is in shambles

since the day u walked outta my life

i'll never forget

i'll never stop remembering

i'll never be able to stop the heartache

you've left me as you walked away

 

as i watch your back turned towards me

i was left all alone and living in isolation

as my heart grows cold and unfeeling

seeing it all sucked down into a black hole

i'm left with nothing but an empty shell

 

living my days with false pretence

as i continue my journey in life

not knowing what's ahead of me

with closed eyes

i walk alone to a path i'll never know

whatever lies ahead

i kneel and pray

that things would turn out right once again

i could only wish that dreams would come true

everytime when i close my eyes

all i can see are flash images of the past

as the past slowly fades

and images slowly get blurred

new images starts roaming round in my head

and a brand new journey starts to unfold

 

as a new journey unfolds

all i need is an angel by my side

to keep me safe and comforted

protecting me from the cruelty of reality

and all i've ever wanted is to just lead life

simple and carefree

 

would i have a miracle to let dreams come to past

would i ever find the peace within me

would i ever be me once again . . .

 

why in the world would i meet a person like u

a hypocrite and a liar

am i just a toy to be traffle with?

or some naive child u thought i was?

do words just comes out from your mouth that easily?

what exactly do those words mean to u?

are they nothing but just lines to keep yourself entertained with?

i thought u were different

but i guess i was wrong about you

i'll never believe a single word from your mouth again

 

i thought i was completely over it

but i guess i'm still not

thank god, i've made the right decision

not telling u anything was for the best

i'll rather u stay unaware of it

then to learn of it and think of ways to deal with it

 

totally totally disappointed with my judgement...

*sighx*

 

a brand new blog once again! haha*

a brand new year and everything's new. lolx*

anyways, it's just 1 day away from CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

 

had a splendid day today!!

was on the top of the world.. high, high, fly away~

 

it's last day of school tomorrow before i can finally get 4 days off from sch!! weeee~

hope everything goes well tomorrow esp for gao lan's class. haiix.

mon's dance class was pretty alright, most prob she was in a good mood. hehx*

 

anyways, trudy's group will be presenting tomorrow for moon moon's lesson.

wish her all the best!!

p/s: under credits, remember to put my name & marc's down kks? haha*

 

and of course not forgetting to those who're in the mist of their exams...

BEST OF LUCK!! GAMBATTE!! AJA AJA FIGHTING!! hahax*

and to those who'll be graduating soon..

DAMN..!! hahax* just kidding~  IT'S CELEBRATION TIME!!! lolx*

 

rica's gonna be going for another interview tomorrow morning.

hope everything goes well for her.

may she get a job soon < so u wont need to leave for australia that fast.. hehx* >

i dont wanna go all watery @ the airport. hahax*